great, my mind just went blank.
things i wanted to type out just flew outta the window.
though it's shut right now with curtains draping over, LOL.

right, i'll probably come back when the thought comes back to me.
HAHAHAHA.

P.S: 
sorry B, gotta say i really can't leave without the 'F' word.
i think i rather take back my words about the exchange.
now you can have your 'S' word back! :D

pardon me cause i'm getting a little tired and high at the same time, LOL.

before i start on anything, just wanna give a big shoutout to OMY! :D
THANKS, XX FROM THIS LITTLE WOMAN HERE, LOL.
though i've got no idea how to hug a virtual site, but you get what i mean. ;D

phew it's 1.38am now babey!
but i can't wait to share this review on this awesomestically amazing movie, that shouts me and is really BOOMS.
LOL!

right, are you ready for the rough guide through? ;D
hurry, don on those 3D glasses and we're on the way! :D

this is what we were greeted to when we made our way into the Marina Square's Golden Village.
pretty awesome eh!
there's even dry ice to create that icy atmosphere that's like the main feature in the movie itself!


and just look at that crowd!
it's almost difficult to get to the food/ beverage/ tidbits (whatever you wanna call it) counter.
in fact, it's really hard to even move around on the spot, LOL.
at least from where i was standing. ;D


and we were even surprise when we saw these pleasant goodies on each and every of the chair!
really wasn't expecting it at all! :D

but we made a mistake on our seating arrangements.
HAHA, the 4 of us thought we were on a free seating arrangement, but uh oh, not the case for this movie.

so our kiasu-ness kinda went down the drain, HAHA.

there!
the tickets stated it and we still made the mistake.
probably too excited for it that we overlooked, HAHAHA. ;DD
and i really like how the ticket comes along with this 'cover'.
really pretty!


and now, onto photos with the girls! :D

jiayi! :D

andrea! ;D

with the Chui sisters! :D


is it me or does natalielove looks more like me than how jiayi looks like me?
LOLOLOL, if that made sense. XD

what's the difference, you ask?
it's boyfriend's expression.
HAHAHAHAHA!

and finally, a higher definition group photo! :D


now, what goes below this line happened after the movie! [:

so nat wanted to go back to have some pictures taken with the pretty backdrop...

just then, we got caught by some of OMY's staffs to have an interview with us!

LOL, it was kinda embarrassing and awkward since andrea and jiayi didn't wanna join us. ]:
but we're spontaneous people, not like SOME PEOPLE uh. XD

and finally done with it!
walk home with gifts and happy memories!

and now, moving on!
my take on the movie goes as follows! :D

YOU GUYS HAVE GOT TO WATCH THIS, IN 3D!
because i'm pretty sure the 2D version will be a tad too plain for my liking.
but i assure you, if you're a fan of dreaming to fly or roll down some nong nong stairs minus the pain, this is DEFINITELY the movie for you! :D

oh god, don't get me to start on how wonderful the effects were!
though some scenes might induce giddiness, but really, it's awesomestically worth it!
i was really on the edge of reaching out to the screen right in front of me while the show was going on.
the girl beside me must have mistook me for a freak, HAHAHAHA!

the front part didn't really get to me because half the time i was trying my best to decipher what the characters were talking about.
oh, i'm talking about the accent.
but i kinda get it after awhile.

the plot's really really really good!
very educational and morally great for kids and teenagers like us!
i still remember having a smile plastered to my face at the ending, it was touching, much. [:

so if you're interested to find out more, do check these out! :D

Synopsis


be sure to catch it when it's out! :D

fuckyeahlove.tumblr.com is awesome for people in love and not.
well, i'm definitely the one that belonged to the latter. (or not?)
hmm.

okay so here 12 that i think pretty much express how i feel like or what i wanna say. [:
have a read. ;D

how sad. ]:

although i really prefer this;
right?
like you'll be deep in remorse that you didn't cherish me. [:


but;
and that's when i got taken for granted.

and he really didn't bother.

see what i mean?

hahahaha.

yes, totally seriously madly true.


and stay tuned for the movie review of Christmas Carols! :D

i was the first to give you was the first to ask.

random photos! :D
yummmmmy!

FINALLY the neatest french braid i ever did for myself. ;D

pure grey nails are love! :D


and onto Saturday's outing with A & B! :DD

met at bugis junction.
had dinner at the food court.
then decided to walk by iluma.
settled for Jennifer's Body after sometime.
then we went roaming around, LOL.
for nearly 2 hours!

hahaha camwhorers!

then wanna act shy.

this one, no comments.
LOL!

A's face is fucking classic loh, HAHAHA. ;D

he caught this B&J strawberry ice-cream at two bucks eh.
wooooot, totally worth it!



and here goes 'some malay guy' showing off his basketball skills to us.
but do check out the score as the pictures go on.
i can NEVER ever get such scores, LOL!

the ultimate!


A decided to scrunch his nose when i asked him to camwhore with me, HAHAHA.

malay guy, crazy guy and scrunched face.

then wanna act cool. XD


okay, done with the outing part.


i think you're no stranger to me mentioning that i own a goldfish memory eh? [:
that probably is the most common phrase i've to repeat other than,
'yeah, i've got a twin'
'stop asking me to chill, what are you gonna do to me?
put me in the damn fridge?'

right, so what about that?

since i've got a short life span for memories, that means i've got a limited amount of concentration too.
make sense, no?
i think it just seems to me that i'm like that.
oh well, can't help it. *shrugs*

but thing is, will you wanna do things over and over again every single day?
probably once of twice that particular week is fine, but seriously.
repeating it not only a chore but a bore.

here comes the 'kite-flying' theory of mine.
to me, i apply this whenever i could.
be it relationships, getting things i want and all that.

it just meant, self-discipline and self-control.
really, it's that simple.
okay let's just make an example.

imagine you're in a relationship.
the girl wants to meet the guy almost everyday.
the guy don't mind it initially.
as days go by, it became a habit.
and this habit, isn't good to adopt AT ALL.

when you fly a kite, you don't always let the string run so that the kite can fly right?
you pull it sometimes so that it can catch some wind to continue its' flight.
so if you wanna try and prolong something, do it that way.
don't go to the extremes, that's the key.

do it too much, you'll get take for granted.
don't do anything, you'll get belittle.
strike a balance, not necessary a perfect one but try your best eh? ;D

if you let the string loose for too long, the wind might get strong and *poof*, there goes your kite.
and if you control it too much, it won't be able to fly.
apply that to the boy-girl scenario and you'll probably get a clearer visual. [:

well, i hope i did make some sense to some of you. [:
cause life haven't got much second chances.
it's now or never, really.
don't know how many time is this already, but CHERISH the opportunity.

and another thing i wanna rant about is this weird feeling i get.
don't say i thick-skin ah.
if you want to, you better stop reading.
HAHA. ;D

okay, so like when you have the feeling that someone is falling for you.
and if you weren't ready or having the same feeling that person have for you, what do you guys normally do?

as for me, i usually back off.
like keeping a safe distance until i feel right for me to be closer to him again.
so question is, am i the only one here?
certainly not, right? ]:

UPDATE:
just for your information.
or some of you might not know this.
but really, i'm not desperate to be in a relationship.
if i think that i can be in one, i'll take it.
i don't with just ANYONE.
get that in your fucked up mind yeah. *winks

i really really really hate crying.
i once told this ex girl friend of mine before.
'i hate having to wipe my tears off my face, doing it all alone just made it worse...'
i'm not sure if she's going to read this, and if she ever cry, will she recall this sentence i once said.


things had not gotten any better.
at least to me.
everything just seemed to be at their dullest and most lifeless moments...
i told myself, i'll pull myself together.
and people reminded me, time and time again.
that this isn't what's worst in a life.
someone might be far far far having a much difficult time handling something they never expect to.

but then again, life's a test.
and this one is a definitely a hard one for me.

and on a random note, i wish to apologise.
in any different kinda of communication.
not doing it for the sake of wanting to gain people's attention, whatsoever.
but i really really really felt sorry for all that silly things i'd did in the past.

it's a wonder how i don't seldom go back to be in touch with my past already.
i used to be someone who loves to reminisce, alot.
but i hardly ever touch the archives of my blog anymore.
it literally pains me to go back to those happy moments where i think i really don't deserve it at all.
or the sad ones, they'll probably push me to an edge when i think i can never ever be happy again.
and on the raging mad ones, i might really need to take control of my temper.

this might be the first time i'm feeling so much at once.
so nostalgic on everything i see, hear, touch and smell...

and today first waking thought, was that i felt like i'm in a guest-house.
or worse, a hotel room.
the house doesn't feel like the one i've been living in these past years.
it's so strange i couldn't help feeling sad..
and hour after hour, the feelings just got worst.
rewinding the worse stages in my life, up in my head silently.

so on my way home, i didn't even realized that i'm near death as a bus skidded to a halt when i was walking back to jurong east.
my reflexes went bonkers, just like its' owner.
and there's this napfa test tomorrow.
i wonder how bad i'm going to fare for it this time.
didn't prepare for 2.4km at all.
oh well, everything's pre-destined right?
let's just leave it to fate then.

i don't even know why i'm blogging all these parts down randomly.
for future mocking sessions?
hahaha...

i think what's going on right now, is my karma.
what goes around, comes back around.
totally deserve it, i guess.
because if it's not karma, i can't think of any other reasons why i keep thinking that whatever went wrong, is my fault.

alright, this 'emo' rant of mine had gone a tad too long.
i'mma stop now.

but before i bid farewell, people reading this;
i hope you're cherishing something/ someone in your life.
i know it ain't my business, but really.
cause i miss my chances and alot have passed.
now i'm living in much remorse. [:

oh god, so tell me when are these negativity going to stop...

God, i was really really psyched up for this one here!
wanna make a guess on what is it?

point of crying over spilt milk?:
get the rest to pity you and you'll win, isn't it?

nope, this isn't the malaysia post.
just something that's going on in my life right now.
skip this, if you're not in for a rant. [:

great, how should i start this?
right, so the life i'm leading now is literally very much alike to that of a roller coaster.
only that this roller coaster is staying still.
at the boring-est and most fucked up moments.

why that?
apparently i've been tweeting about having my secret leaked out right?
if you've been following me on twitter and facebook, that is.
and if you're curious on what kinda secret, i'm sorry.
not divulging it, to anyone else, anyfuckingmore.
but what i've really learnt from this incident is to NEVER trust anyone easily.
even your own family members.

i really had enough living in the dark, hoping my secret will not run off anyone's
mouth and let alone got hang loose on one.
but it did.
it fucking did.
my initial reaction was really, laughing at those people who assumed &accused
me of things that wasn't the truth.

then it dawned on me that, another 2 additional humans whom i didn't have the slightest idea of having my secret with them, knew it.
not until i found out, MYSELF that is.
oh and may i add, WITHOUT my permission?

cause you know what?
that 2 person got notified by someone whom i thought i could trust.
or more like she confided to them about my secret.
just because she can't handle it.

and that kinda brings me to the whole point of the story;

i thought we've got a promise, y'all know?
a promise to keep it until i decided to come clean with people i love.
and NOT when i'm being forced to spill it when the situation went outta hand.
a promise that you'll NEVER use my classified information against me.
so now what's happening?

i guess i can only blame my stupid self, for misplacing the trust.
for letting it go, because i thought you can and should know about it.


time and time again, when you used it to blackmail me, my heart gave a huge hurl.
i swear i could puke by the thought of having it unmask to the public.
i don't want the clandestine facts went undiscovered until i'm of legal age, but you just went RIGHT AHEAD with it.

and i wasn't in anyway informed until i used that despicable way i've learnt.
so she wasn't planning to come clean with me, and expect me to tell my parents about it when i got bloody boiled up, eh?

people told me that i've changed.
for the worse.
but then again, try being in the shit i'm in and i'll see you ACT all normal and fine about.
then will i have the fair respect for you.


now, tell me how is it FAIR for me?

but like, i've really learnt my fucking lesson.

awww, you made me blush. ;D

before you'd asked anything, yes i'm at malaysia right now.
and it's bloody 2.15am right this moment.

tomorrow will be the day when we visit my beloved grand mom's grave.
i missed her, gosh i do...
but it's fine, since i dreamt of her recently.
and she told me in my dream saying that i'm her favourite outta everyone in my batch! ;D
gosh, was i mad happy and smiling like mad in my dream.
i could totally recall every single details and still recites it to my mom.

oh before i even start, just wanna show you my current nail colour.
done painting after i got my relatives' toe nails and nails painted.
and i was outta ideas, so i thought why not stick to what i always do. ;D

hahahaha this theme totally spelt CARROT to me! :D
and pardon the mess, i always do them like this.
then the next day, when i bath with heated water, the messy sides come off easily. ;D
so there's a tip for ya! :D

aunty, one line, ahtoon and i! :D

hahaha gotta thank andy for inviting me as his partner.
needless to say, my sister's got shawn's ticket.
violet earned alton's. ;D



so we were pretty late, since somethings cropped out.
all thanks to the disappearance of jiayi's.
long story, so shall not rant about that eh. ;D

though shawn did not won, but we pretty much enjoyed ourselves! :D
saw quite a numbers of blogger.
and even managed to get a photo with kaykay! :DDD
god, she's drop dead gorgeous! XD
not a homo. ;D

and we went home with goodies bags in hand.
not just one, but a few.
HAHA, those people giving out were damn generous.
ahtoon got himself 4 lah!
LOL, contained lots of koka maggi mee. XDD

daddy came back on thursday! :D

and on friday, was library day.
had nihon mura with family before that.
ate our fill before heading to woodlands.

was a god-damn light bulb lah.
since jiayi's objective was to meet shawn and vice versa.
oh well, am certainly not the only one lighting the way.
LOL, since shawn got ryan.

and the reason why i'm mad unhappy was because i got molested at the damn arcade! ._.
here's the scene.
i'm on this mini 3d rider at cause way point's arcade.
along with jiayi.
was really fun and exhilarating, since it's been awhile playing something similar to that.
was totally into the thing.
until some secondary something little kiddo just came over the fence, or had his hand over the fence, and touched my thigh.
BLOODY FACK, WAS I FUCKING SHOCKED.

* roll my fucking eyes *
please loh, so many people in the arcade, why am i the frigging unlucky one. (T_T)
it's not like i got touched by some handsome guys.
first was those tikopeks, now kids.
i wonder who's next. (T_T)

but anyway, here's a forced smile right after the incident happened... ]: